I am a very angry person at times, if you'd know me in person you wouldn't think so as I usually am calm but other times usually in private I completely loose it.
A lot has happened in my life which led to me being angry but it started when I was 10 though I won't tell you the story just yet.
Though I pride myself in saying that I will never hurt someone I love physically in anger as I am smarter than that. Though I do see that small things that annoy me sometimes come together and I feel the anger rise inside me.
It's hard living like that since a lot of things can light the fuse.
- Things not going right
- Stress
- Pain (Physically and emotionally)
- Gaming ;)
- and a lot more
Controlling it is a key part of living a good life I say and the person that has helped me the most wasn't a good friend or even a close family member, no, it was a psychologist I saw for about 2 years.
And yes I do know a lot of people have bad experiences with them but this one helped me. And she helped me in one key way. By listening to me and my problems.
fast forward to 2014, my family was going through issues and I saw another psychologist just to talk to her (insurance covered it). And she listened and I got better.
Of course I have to put in work to stay calm and most of the times it works but if I do get worked up I usually retreat and if I do snap I hit things (doors, boxes, etc) but never a person or someone I like or love.
This whole experience made me realize one thing. A lot of people do not have someone that listens to them. And a lot of people don't express their feelings and keep them in just like me, this leads to the pot boiling over and serious damage in the future.
I am open to listening to people if they need to talk (even you readers). Also I urge people that have anger issues or feelings they need to release to find someone they can talk to. It helps, it really does.
That is all, hope you enjoyed.
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